"Billy, I know it's difficult to accept, but the reason I haven't wanted you to know any of this," he says sharply, biting out the words, "is because you are my family and I do care for you." Love, something he feels, something he knows he feels of Billy, is hard to say out loud when he has not told anyone he's loved them since before the war began. "What happened was a mistake and I paid my penance and will continue to do so."